Scatter Brained.

I feel the curtains that are closed.

I feel everything crawling on my shoulders. I feel alone and afraid. I feel young again.

The claws are tearing my back apart. The words are poured into my ears and mouth. My veins are pushing through the surface. Flowing through me, I feel your whispers. The energy is black. Branch out your smiles, your boundaries, to uncertainty. Fear not unto the ones once and always broken. The sky is turning grey again. Light bulbs spinning out. You're covered in sunshine. Reflection covered in rain.

Open your gates! Break open your latches! Time will never repeat itself! Today will never be again. Let them follow. Show them the light you have! They're all begging for a new beginning!

I cry to YOU, oh boastful one, you cradle yourself in pride and affliction. WHY have you brought this so far! The lines were broken! The children are drained! Is this what you wanted? Is it? I close my eyes and wait for the finish line. It hasn't been drawn! You've set this record, you've broken my expectations that I never had.

I've given up. I am alone. I mention you all. You've given me no traces. You've given me reason for hope and to move forward. I have reason. I have hope. You'll all forget it in the end.

I am unworthy of your consistence, your faith in me. Me? I see nothing in myself, why do you? I am not of this world. I am not of this city. I'll fall back into your safety net. I'll kick and scream and hope for a movement.