Scatter Brained.

So I'm on facebook talking with my dear friend Dameon Danford. And This conversation meant a lot to me so I decided to save it. It took forever to copy from Facebook IM, but I did it anyways because it means a lot.


2:40amDameon
hey

2:41amBailey
Hey hey

2:41amDameon
just read your note ( He is referring to the post below, "Courage is too Scarce")

2:43amBailey
What'd you think?

2:44amDameon
you're an incredible writer, first off. i can tell its genuine, but if you dont mind, can you explain to me the story of it?

2:44amBailey
Ah, some parts I'm not sure where they came from. I'm talking to myself mostly though.

2:45amDameon
that's what i thought. what is putting these ideas in your head?

Bailey
Ah, life. I feel like I've become a very different person lately. There is A LOT going on here.

2:48amDameon
sorry, i was doing some stuff. im still here though

2:50amDameon
i was reading that note, and honestly, it sounded sooooo much like some of the things i tell myself quite a bit

2:50amBailey
Ahh, How so?

2:51amDameon
side note: sean said hey

2:51amBailey
tell him Howdy

2:52amDameon
i read that, and let me first start out by saying this: Bailey, God has incredible incredible plans for you. you radiate the light of God.

2:53amBailey
That radiance has decreased drastically the past month or so...

2:53amDameon
i know its sounds like the same cliche stuff people always say, but dont let it lose meaning. it may be cliche, but its the truth

2:53amBailey
Ah, lyrics. I understand that. I just don't understand what I'm supposed to do at this point

2:55amDameon
i know the song, but thats not what i got that from, and no its not. i havent seen you in quite a while, but when i saw you tonight, it was shining through you. idk how, but it was. i could also tell that you are very burdened.

2:56amBailey
You are correct.

2:56amDameon
i cant really explain it, but this is why you remind me so much of erin sometimes.

2:57amBailey
You and your Erin shabang. Ahaha

2:58amDameon
lol. really though, you two both have a presence about you, though its different in both of you. you remind me of her, because you are the only people ive ever met who have that presence.

2:59amBailey
Can you please explain what a presence is?

3:02amDameon
its VERY hard to explain, but is constant. even when you are burndened or have alot on your mind, both of you are constantly radiating God. gosh, i really dont know if i can explain it. you both have an aura, like i can almost tell that you have walked in the room without seeing or hearing you because, idk, it just seems a little (figuratively) brighter

3:03amBailey
Ah, that's really...ah. I don't know. But I feel special.

3:05amDameon
i was reading that note, and it seemed to me that you were really beating yourself up, the way i tend to do it private. that's not something i share with many people, but thats why i said it sounds alot likeme somtimes. let me just say this, in a way that i trust you understand is in no way a romantic gesture, that you are beautiful. you may not feel like it, but Bailey Olivia Rhodes, you are beautiful.

3:06amBailey
I know you feel it coming, here it is: AWWEEE! That means more than you know, Dameon.
Sorry to sound cleshayyy

3:08amDameon
lol. i dont mean to be cheesy, im just trying to be honest. they say beauty is skin deep, but that's not the case. you have such a beautiful mind, and such a beautiful heart (also like Erin).

3:09amBailey
Ahh. My mind is so scattered. My heart is quite cold. Now there is honesty. No cheesyness taken. It means a lot.

3:11amDameon
your mind is vast, seeking knowledge and purpose beyond that which our culture has grown to accept. your heart is deep, and at the core, passionatly yearning for God.

3:13amBailey
Ahh, Your correct. I feel like my ambition for God has completely vanished. I hate it. I don't really know how to go back to Him. I don' t deserve to. Therefore I find it nearly impossible. And that didn't sum it up, much less make sense. lol

Dameon
your mind is vast, seeking knowledge and purpose beyond that which our culture has grown to accept. your heart is deep, and at the core, passionatly yearning for God.

3:17amDameon
we all stray at times, and forget what matters most to us, but its still the core. bailey, i see it. your light shines brighter than your words and thoughts can contradict. "I don't deserve to." that's a phrase i recognize all too well, and im telling you, dont listen to that voice.

3:19amBailey
I understand all of this. And thank you. Your really encouraging. I mean, I still feel God's presence inside me. I don't know what to do with it. I've ignored it far too long. I've become numb to it.

3:24amDameon
our enemy knows what to say to really get to us, and he sounds just like our thoughts. dont let him control you. pray. pray, pray, pray. seriously, dont take it lightly, prayer is a powerful force. and never EVER give up. God has incredible things ahead of you, Bailey. you may not believe me, but one day when we are spending eternity with our savior, you will know that what i said to you that one time at 3:23 in the morning on facebook IM was true. :)

3:25amBailey
Thanks. Thank you thank you thank you. I'll pray. I will.

3:26amDameon
so will i. :) ily bailey. you inspire me. goodnight.

3:27amBailey
I love you too, and that means A LOT that I inspire you. Good night:)

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Ahh, Dameon is one of the few amazing spritual influences in my life at the moment. This means so much to me.